a mantra

not much new to report.  the car refused to start for several days.  dh replaced the starter today, so now we’re good.  except for the fact that the car is a pos and i hate it and we will need a new one before the baby comes and at this moment i don’t really see how that’s going to happen…we did have a plan for this, since we knew before we decided to get pregnant that it would mean a new vehicle.  but somehow even our best laid plans rarely work out, and knowing that, i have to wonder what on earth we were thinking.  all right, fine, i know what we were thinking, but on days when i don’t know how we’re going to pay the bills this week, and then we have to fix the car, and we get a phone call that the credit card is in collections (even though it is current and the next payment isn’t due yet), my faith doesn’t feel like enough.  but it has to be, so i keep on telling myself it will work out, it will work out, one way or another it has to work out.